For those of you who’re on my mailing list, you’re probably sat there thinking ‘she hasn’t posted a blog in a while’, and it’s true – I haven’t. The reason for that is because, I’ve gone through some pretty big life changes this year, which naturally caused blogging to take a major back seat. During this time I thought about a lot of things and re-evaluated a lot, and as a result some tough decisions have been made, which is what I want to address with you today.
Firstly, I’d just like to say that I love music and that I have absolutely loved running this blog; nothing has brought me more joy than being able to meet and speak to artists that I love, receiving positive feedback on a piece, having an artist that I have admiration and respect for share my work on social media, or just generally being told my work is good and people enjoy reading it. However, I’ve just found that lately I’ve become really uninspired with it; music isn’t grabbing me the same way it once was, a lot of my favourite bands have broken up, and I’ve just had so much more going on that I haven’t had time – or even been in the mood – to sit and write. In short, blogging has started to feel like more of a chore than it once did.
I also wonder if my blog is becoming tired; is anyone out there interested in what I have to say anymore? Where they ever? Are any of the blog ‘friends’ that I’ve made over the years still there? or has everyone moved on? And if they have, should I?
I’ve also found that my opinion on a lot of things has changed – how often I spend on the internet being one of them. I’ve become disinterested in being ever present online and on social media. I no longer care about uploading my holiday snaps to Facebook and letting people see so much of my life, or seeing so much of other people’s lives for that matter. I’ve also become frustrated with the fact that people see social media as an adequate form of communication, I’d much rather have an actual conversation and really know how the people that I care about are doing – it’s so easy to type ‘yeah, I’m fine’ when you’re actually crying on the other end of the screen. Similarly, I also dislike how checking someone’s social pages to make sure they’re still alive negates the need to actually reach out to someone, I’d much prefer a text, a quick phone call, or actually meeting up with someone – crazy idea I know!
I’ve also realised that the drama that comes with social media can easily be avoided; whether it’s getting fed up of seeing someone’s posts and deleting them, misinterpreting someone’s meaning from a typed comment, or hurting when you see your friend’s out without you, or your ex posting pictures with their new squeeze. Why do we put ourselves through it? I’ve often thought about the correlation between social media and mental health, and I know from personal experience that when you’re not in the best frame of mind about something, social media can be a massive hindrance.
I’d much rather actually live my life; see things, do things and experience life myself, through my own eyes, and spend time with the people I care about rather than spending so much of my time stuck behind a screen. I’ve also recently met the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with, and I want to actually make a life with him and have the people privy to that be the people that I have regular contact with, rather than people I haven’t seen since school who typed my name in a search bar ‘just to see what I was up to’.
As a result, I’ve decided that I’ll be stepping away from blogging during 2018 in favour of having adventures and indulging in this new chapter in my life. As I said, I’ve loved blogging, but it’s been seven years and I just feel that I need some time for myself at the moment. Having said that, I’m not going to close the book on it completely; I may take a break and decide I want to come back to it in two months, six months, or a year. Or, I may decide that it’s something I’ve just run out of steam with – I don’t know.
However, I would like to thank all the PR agents, managers, and band members who agreed to interviews, who’ve liked and shared my reviews, or who’ve messaged me to say thank you for reviews, as well as anyone who has read my work, signed up to my mailing list or followed my work in some way – it was never unappreciated. I thrive on knowing that the people who inspire me, know that, and that I can give back to them in some small way by showing my appreciation for what they do in sharing it with others.
I’ve had a blast but, as they say, all good things come to an end, and even though this may not be goodbye forever, it still feels like the end of an era. Thank you for coming along for the ride. Have a fantastic 2018 everyone – spend it how you want to 🙂 .
Rockersophz27 signing off…